And
just like that, it's February. (It has barely begun for the most part, but as
of this writing, we're approaching the end of its first fifteen days fast—a testament
to the month's lightning quick consideration of days.) It is the shortest month
of the year, but it carries with it a kind of gravity that makes it a month where
pivotal things happen. The perceptive among us—those for which the days are never
just dates on an impersonal calendar, and who are able to sit back and observe
acutely how the times flow and rearrange the minutiae of our lives—may be in quiet
celebration for having survived the testy beginning waters of January, a month
where resolution and reality necessarily collide with each other. January was
a battle. February is a most-needed return to sanity.
February
is also a kind of reality check, a chance to reconsider the hopes and furious
aspirations we laid bare for ourselves in the beginning of the year. February
is when the year really starts for many of us, when we take note of the currents
of our own Oriental bearings and hope for the best in the Year of the Rat. February
is when things finally take root after the frost of New Year. For some, February
is Arts Month, when the country bursts into a celebration for our cultural heritage.
February is also the love month—and that takes care of the sentimental reaches
of our lives. February also marks the beginning of Lent—and that takes care of
the spiritual.
I love
Febr uary for its gentle days. (At least, that's how February is in the slow motion
of Dumaguete.) There are certainly winter chills in China now, and elsewhere the
severe cold has just began to wreck havoc on what is often considered the coldest
month of the year. Forgive me then for knowing only this: suddenly, last Tuesday
in fact, the first day of summer has seemingly arrived in Dumaguete, and by the
weekend, that intimation of beaches and frolic continue unabated.
Last
Tuesday, I was leaving the Audio Visual Theater after Myrna Peña-Reyes's
most insightful lecture on the writing and reading of modern poetry, when I sensed
something both different and familiar: I felt the February sun tripping on my
skin in that most gentle of nipping absent for most of the year (but becomes a
cocoon of sorts at the height of Maytime).
People
in Dumaguete know very well that I am not talking about your regular, ordinary
hot day where the sun is content with its bland and ruthless campaign to burn
everything. They know that the sun becomes poetry during summer days in Dumaguete,
and its shine has its own flavor only the true native can discern: the heat is
of an underwhelming sort, something that comes as an embrace rather than an oppression;
there is a certain stillness everywhere that engulfs—but not entirely devours—everybody
into a sweet kind of narcolepsy; and the slant of the sunlight on everything gives
the whole city a sepia glow. Last Tuesday was the first day of such manifestations.
And I think: this may be a great day to be alive, in Dumaguete, with that promise
of summer just around the bend. I like February, because it brings with it that
promise of the eventual end of a hectic schoolyear (especially for a teacher like
me), and because it is the very portal to summer.
But
there's something else about February—a paradox of some sort—that I discovered
I liked. Around last Wednesday, I was having coffee—alone—in a little café
somewhere in the city, trying to think up something to say about Valentines for
this column. (The bane for columnists is trying to say something about current
seasons.) It was a most hopeless pursuit, and I kept telling myself: What else
is there left to write about love, and loving, and Valentines Day? I could tread
on old grounds, but I am not one to repeat myself in this column—and I certainly
did not want to end up writing a mushy piece about a most mushy season.
In
the middle of sipping my coffee mocha, I was snapped out of my writing quandary
when a friend approached to tell me: “Advanced Happy Valentines Day!” She said
it with such gusto. She also said it with a strange mark on her forehead—a dash
of ash that quickly told me this was no ordinary Wednesday. It was the mark of
the start of Lent. Those two things combined—the ash mark on my friend's forehead
and her gleeful Valentine greeting— dawned on me as being particularly curious.
It struck as being both
particular strange and appropriate that the whole Valentine season should fall
somewhere near the beginning of Lent—only a week or so after the orgiastic revelry
of Fat Tuesday and the beginning fast of Ash Wednesday. The whole parade towards
the high holy days of March for most of Christendom includes, if you really come
to think about it, this brief interlude when “love” becomes the centerpiece of
everybody's consideration.
Suddenly,
even with the somber promise of Lent, there is this mid-February rush for flowers.
Suddenly, there is competition for tables still available in the gamut of restaurants
that dot the city. (The ones that are more decidedly romantic are quickly blanketed
with iron-clad reservations that can make for a case of a heart attack.) Suddenly,
there is a run for those bars of chocolate. And motel rooms. Suddenly, there is
a barrage of love songs filling the air as one radio station after another competes
to saturate all of us with the mushiness that comes with the season.
The
Lenten season, though, is a period of sacrifice. The fact of Valentines Day occurring
within it may demand from all of us a kind of redefinition of its celebration.
For what is love really but the human ability to sacrifice for the sake of something
we feel for, and truly believe in? In the most excruciating example of this spiritual
dimension of loving, we have the final scene of Lent—that of Christ on the cross—sacrificing
his life for the sake of mankind.
And
on that note, I finished drinking my coffee. Happy Valentines Day to one and all.